I Knew From the Start

I don’t want to hurt you, but something feels wrong

You’re too goddamn weak (but you’re also too strong)

The last thing I want is to lead you along, and

I knew from the start we won’t make it.

I didn’t choose all of your details by hand

And your mouth never marches according to plan

I can’t see you past all these imagined demands

So I knew from the start we won’t make it.

There’s twenty loves waiting behind you in line

Each of which willing to briefly be mine

Forever’s a farce but for right now is fine;

As I knew from the start, we won’t make it.

I don’t like you happy; I don’t like you sad

The sight of you thinking is driving me mad

I won’t make the same mistake as mom and dad,

Who they knew from the start wouldn’t make it.

You won’t let me live out the comfortable lie

I soak in my guilt when the tinder gets dry

You’ll probably leave me and someday, you’ll die

So I knew from the start we won’t make it.