I Knew From the Start
I don’t want to hurt you, but something feels wrong
You’re too goddamn weak (but you’re also too strong)
The last thing I want is to lead you along, and
I knew from the start we won’t make it.
I didn’t choose all of your details by hand
And your mouth never marches according to plan
I can’t see you past all these imagined demands
So I knew from the start we won’t make it.
There’s twenty loves waiting behind you in line
Each of which willing to briefly be mine
Forever’s a farce but for right now is fine;
As I knew from the start, we won’t make it.
I don’t like you happy; I don’t like you sad
The sight of you thinking is driving me mad
I won’t make the same mistake as mom and dad,
Who they knew from the start wouldn’t make it.
You won’t let me live out the comfortable lie
I soak in my guilt when the tinder gets dry
You’ll probably leave me and someday, you’ll die
So I knew from the start we won’t make it.
